How could I have possibly said yes when my body was shut down ?

How did you in my silence hear any sound?

You started, I woke up, I reacted, you proceeded

I moved, I panicked, I pleaded , you didn’t stop, I was defeated

I cried, I bled, many tears I shed, in and out you repeated

The memory still plays in my head

I can still feel you breathing down my neck

You made me look at mankind very differently, you made me fear men

Sometimes I feel that I will never be intimate with anyone again

You taught me real pain, I went into deep depression and I feel insane

Because when I see them, I see you, and instantly I am afraid

I wish I never let you get away with it, I wish for your actions, you paid

I’ve suffered for long in silence now I’m raising my voice

I am ARAAH and whether I wanted to or not should’ve been my choice

I am not a victim, I am a survivor

It wasn’t my fault, you are the predator

It wasn’t the way I looked or how I dressed

It was you! The one who penetrated me without a humble request

And now I say with all my chest

I WAS NOT THE CAUSE

NOT SEX, BUT RAPE! THAT IS WHAT IT WAS

NOT SEX, BUT RAPE! THAT IS WHAT YOU CHOSE